I don't have the strength to stay away from you, anymore. ~Edward Cullen, Twilight

For the first time since I-can't-remember-when, I will use Taglish in my post. Why? I don't know. I just want to use Tagalog and English. Perhaps, for a change.

Anyway, my last post was about the Fun Nights we had last December 17 and 18, 2008. I must say, I still have hangovers. In short, bitin ako, super. I dunno. Siguro, kailangan ko lang talaga yung mga ganung moments. Well, I have been very busy since last semester or rather, last year. Parang, that's my own way to unwind before Christmas vacation diba?

I know you've been there during my down moments like, thesis, seminar, sleepless nights, nakakapagod na trips, failures and all that. Talagang na-feel ko yung pagod sa dami ng workloads ko. And also, naging witness din kayo sa nakaka-windang kong lovelife. Teka, meron nga ba? Hahahaha :)

This year has been really a different year for me in a way na sobrang naging complicated siya at super daming issues yung na-experience ko for this year. Kaya talagang kakaiba yung year na ito for me.

The day after Arriba Fest, we had our OJT. So, I had to wake up early in the morning and fix myself. That same day, parang nagkaroon ng conflict between me and Niko. I don't want to detail much about it but it seemed hindi nya alam na bad trip ako sa kanya that time. Actually, until Sunday, I wasn't still in the mood to talk or communicate with him. It was about the incident happened that morning. So, that entire day, I wasn't talking to him talaga. And I didn't even say bye nung bumaba na ako ng train.

But Sunday evening, we were all good na. Though medyo nag-away pa din kami but eventually, he said sorry. Funny kaming dalawa noh? Hahahaha :) Actually sa kanya lang talaga ako naba-bad trip nang ganun. And I really don't know why. Tapos lagi ko siyang inaasar at inaaway but admittedly, lambing ko lang yun. Hahahah :D Well, lagi kaming ganun, parang aso't pusa. At sanay na sanay na ako, swear. Well, except dun sa na-bad trip talaga ako sa kanya 'cause that was below the belt.

Nothing much happened to me the past few days. Except for Christmas Eve. Hahaha :D I went online thinking that most of my friends were online too. I was totally wrong. Hahaha :D I quite expected that though. I know everyone was busy 'cause that was the day before Christmas. Ian instant messaged me. Ayun, todo chat kami. Kaka-miss din yun, in fairness. Kasi naman, after last semester, di na kami ganun ka-in touch. Eh kasi we were busy with our own business. Tapos when this semester started, hindi na kami ganun nagkikita because of our OJT. The text session was lessened also. But now, todo text ulit kami, actually, before Christmas vacation started pa nga eh. Todo chat kami till the clock strike at 12am. We greeted each other Merry Christmas, of course. Tapos, I ended the session at 1am kasi I had to attend the mass at 9:30am. Christmas Eve

Christmas Day was fun too. We attended the mass then visited my grandma. We had a simple lunch sa house. Picture taking, of course. My inaanaks came to get their gifts. Hahahaha :D Kids were everywhere. Kumita kaya sila? I don't know. In the afternoon, we had bunutan for the exchange gift sa New Year. We will have a family reunion which is also an annual event. We will be having games din. We will be having a blast on the 1st day of 2009. Green is the color, by the way. Happy Christmas

Year 2008 will soon end and it will still leave a big question mark in my life which I will surely bring on the Year of the Ox. Confusion still lives in me up to now. Haaaaaay. I just can't get enough of this. Parang hindi na natapos eh. Hopefully, everything will be settled na din before I graduate. I'm looking forward to a great year.

It's a wonder how love strikes you at the most unexpected time. And somehow, in some way, it disappears exactly at the moment you are ready to face it.

I really had a blast for two consecutive nights. Two unbelievable and incredible nights with friends. Actually, I wasn't supposed to go but hey, the plans changed and I didn't regret the fact that I attended though I only have a few hours of sleep.

December 17, 2008
IT Knights Out
Dolce, Tomas Morato

It was the most awaited event of all Information Technology, ACT and Digital Arts students of Letran. It was a somehow an IT Christmas Party organized by the Letran Information Technology Society and the Institute of Information Technology.

The day before, I wasn't really sure if I am going to attend the event or not because we have an OJT that same day. Joanne and I were planning of what to do which was either leave the office at lunch time or not to go to office at all. We were convincing and persuading Niko to come with us but he wasn't really sure coz he wanted to come to the office.

The morning of the 17th, I wasn't in the mood to go to the office and I don't know why. I took my breakfast and eventually, received text messages from Niko and Joanne about the plan. Since Niko woke up late, he didn't want to attend our duty so that he could also sleep longer. We were exchanging messages to finalize the decision and so, we settled on not attending our duty in the office. The three of us went back to sleep.

As soon as I woke up again, I asked my friends about their plan and all. Joanne was sure so as to Cha, Eunice, JL, Kath, Kel, Jhen and Gian. Niko was still undecided. I kept on forcing him to go with us but he was still having second thoughts. Our meeting place was at Park and Ride because JL brought his car. We were all dressed up and ready to party. It was around 7.30pm when we arrived at Dolce. We were all there except for Gian who didn't know how to get to the place though he was riding a cab. I thought he was all by himself but I was totally surprised to see Niko with him. Yeah, he did surprised me because I really thought he won't come.

It was around 8pm when we entered the bar. We looked for a place and got our food and drinks. I got a beer and an Iced Tea. Don't ask why. There were conflicts with the stub. I should have gotten two rounds of beer.

The party started with a program. The emcee was a gay and we felt like we were in a comedy bar. It was fun, absolutely fun. We enjoyed it because he was so funny. There was an awarding of the Best Dressed and Face of the Night. There was also a raffle where a friend of mine won a thousand bucks.

The much awaited part of the night finally came - Party Time. We were grooving and dancing enjoying every beat of the music being played. Dolce is one heck of a good place to have fun. We rocked the house down. The lights and sounds were perfect. It was so much better than Temple Bar where we held our IT Knights Out last year. What I don't like about Dolce is that their cocktail tables are everywhere, even at the middle. But all in all, it was good.

Of course, we captured every moment. It was tiring, though. We went out at 12mn and I was fetched by Daddy Carlo. It was one heck of a fun night. We will do that again soon.


December 18, 2008
Arriba Fest
Letran Grounds

I wasn't supposed to watch the annual Christmas concert in Letran because it wasn't part of my plan after all. But because some of my friends will watch and I know that it will going to be a super fun night, I decided to go.

Around 3pm when I left the house and headed not to Letran but to SM Manila to meet Niko. As soon as I arrived, I also saw Rey, they were playing PS2. I approached them and stayed there for a couple of minutes. I went out again to stroll and buy a dress for myself. I had an hour of walking and roaming trying to look for a perfect dress until I settled with a cute mini dress at Just G. The two boys met me at Watsons. We strolled then ate at Burger King.

We went to Letran to watch the concert. Taken by Cars, Paraluman, Rivermaya and Parokya ni Edgar were the bands who rocked the Letran Grounds. Christian Bautista was there also but we didn't get to see him perform. We were quite late. The DJ, by the way, is kinda cute.

I was with Niko, Joanne, Cha, Jhen, Alwyn, Kel, Jaja, Chester and some other batchmates. The best part, of course, was Parokya ni Edgar. The best performer ever. They really know how to keep the crowd high. I have gotten the chance to touch Vinci's arm. Hahaha ;D They sang six songs. It was super kaduper fun though it was bitin. We were still asking for some more. I also touched Gab's arm and able to hold Buwie's hand. Take note, holding hands. Hahahaha ;D I was also surprised and kilig. Until now, I can't get over it.

After the show, we decided to take a rest until we decided to go home. Today, we had our OJT and some of my friends are now having fun at Enchanted Kingdom.

Multiply Updates:
MCP Club Tarp Pictorial, Dinner with the IT Family, IT Knights Out, Arriba Fest '08

Someone can make you feel that you are so special, but you'll never know if it's their habit to make everybody feel that way.

It has been a long and tiring week for me. I have experienced a hell yet fun week. Sounds ironic, ayt? The week that has passed is the number one reason of my lack of sleep and headaches.

Last Monday, as always, we went to PNB for our OJT together with Joanne and Niko. But we decided not to attend our class at 7.30pm due to laziness. That same day also, the boys had a game at Muñoz, near Rex's crib. That's why Joanne and I to cut the class because we knew that we will do nothing and we're oh so right.

Last Tuesday, we had a meeting for the Interschool Digital Arts Competition organized by the Letran Microsoft Certified Professionals Club where I am the Vice President. The plan wasn't finalized yet and there were some things that are needed to be done. I'm not part of the Marketing Committee but ended up being a part of it after helping my friends with the layout of the tarpaulin that we will be using for the event. Yeah, I did the design though at first, I didn't want to reveal that I was the one who did that because I thought I'll be receiving negative feedback from my batchmates and professors, as well. Good thing, I didn't and in fact, they loved it.

Last Wednesday was a super fun day for the Three-O (Cez, Joanne and Niko). We had a lunch out with our bosses. Yeah, we've got a free lunch courtesy of our four bosses and two of their friends. Actually, they informed us about that lunch out last Monday and the three of us were like "do we need to go there?" because we were hesitant to come with them. Of course, they are the bosses and we're just the mere trainees. So, we were discussing that we're going to decline the invitation and just reason out. But we were not able to do that. Our mouth remained shut after one of our bosses told us that we should follow her to the parking area in the basement. We were like robots who followed her without any word. So there, we ate at Seaside just near our office. Lots and lots of seafoods to choose from.

At first, we were hesitant to get foods and they were asking us what we want and all. But eventually, we find ourselves tasting all the foods served. We ate a lot and I felt how big my stomach was that time. We were full, actually but they were convincing us to eat more which we can't reject. Hahaha :) They also ate more than what we ate. Our bosses were really noisy and loud. We didn't expect it from them. It was like the entire restaurant were full of people when in fact, there were actually three tables occupied. Laughters were everywhere. And swear, it was one hell of a fun afternoon with the bosses.

Last Thursday, we were all busy preparing for the event this coming Tuesday. We had our pictorial for the tarpaulin welcoming the delegates. It was super kaduper fun. We were all hyper including our professors. We were doing weird poses and we only had a number of formal shots. Most of the pictures were wacky. Hahaha :) Afterwhich, we went to the IIT to fix all the things needed for the event including the invitation and the posters. Only few were working and that includes me, Joanne, Niko, Marco and Chester. I asked them about the other officers whereabouts and I received nothing. In fact, Joanne, Niko and Marco and not officers of the organization but they are very much willing to help us out.

We failed to attend our class at 4.30pm where we had a quiz. Good thing, our professor was kind enough to allow us to take the exam before the next class's schedule since our class was dismissed early. After taking the not-so difficult quiz, Niko, Marco and Chester went to Chester's house to transfer the pictures from Chester's digicam and then later on, went to Vito Cruz for the tarp. As to Joanne and I, we went to SM Manila to buy envelopes for the invitation. We also bought pizza (double delight) courtesy of Mam Abbie.

We were waiting for an hour and a half at IIT because the boys told us that they'll meet us there. Until I received a call from Marco telling us to go to SM Manila because we'll eat. And we had a free dinner at KFC courtesy of Marco. How I wish that Marco is always stress so he would always treat us. Hahaha :D After that, Niko went to our house to finish the layout of the other tarp. He was here for two hours with full of asaran and tawanan. Hays. We were too loud. He went home at 12am.

Yesterday, after attending our OJT, Three-O met Marco at Jollibee-Vito Cruz to claim the tarp. We had a call from Sir Armin asking us to go to Abas in Quirino. We went there and we were surprised that it was a bar. Sir Armin, Mam Abbie and Sir Robby treated us for a dinner. Oh yeah, three consecutive days. Joanne and I saw a lot of handsome and hot guys there. We're going back there, for sure. After the dinner, we went back to Letran then decided to go home.

Today, I had my parish exposure at Immaculate Conception Parish where I rendered three hours. I'll go back next Saturday coz I had to accomplish 18 hours. All I did was face the computer and encoded. And I am very much fine with it. This afternoon, we went to the hospital to visit my grandpa. He might go out on Monday or Tuesday.

Tomorrow, I'll be attending a Christening where I will be one of the ninangs. But mom and I need to go to Tutuban, 168 and Divi first.

I wish normal people have a heart that vampires do. Once they fall in love, they never fall out of love.

The Dream Match is finally over. So much preparations were made not only by Manny Pacquiao and Oscar dela Hoya but also those people who were really anxious and eager to know the outcome of the much awaited match-up. It was indeed the most awaited one because two great boxers were up for a challenge. But in any match-up, only one is expected to win and this time, it was Manny Pacquiao who won the classic battle.

Oh well, I wasn't really excited with that match-up. As a matter of fact, I didn't talk about it that much. It wasn't as loud as the previous matches of Manny. Perhaps, because many boxing analysts predicted that Oscar would surely win and the Philippine's pride was the underdog. Yet, the turn of events was really unexpected. Manny did great and it was really evident. I, myself, didn't expect that he would be in his best. It was a great match, a legendary one, in fact.

I wasn't able to watch Karylle singing the Philippine National Anthem so I can't critic her now. My brother was changing the TV's channel that time so we missed that part. It wasn't really a big deal, after all.

Anyway, Christmas is just few days away and I can really feel the holiday season. The cold weather seems to be obvious especially during the night time. I'm still not prepared in a way that I haven't bought presents for my friends and that there are a lot of things that I need to buy. But I know the Christmas season is not about that but admit it, it is really a part of it. Yeah, I am excited in a way that it is a much-awaited annual event. I just can't deny the fact that I'm quite sad because I miss my dad so much. How I wish he is here to celebrate Christmas with us.

Aside from that, IT Night is confirmed. I don't know if my friends would come but I really want to. It isn't required for Seniors to go this time but you know, I really wanna go. It is something that I'm really looking forward to. I'm not a Party Animal but it is something that I really enjoy doing. So, if one of my friends would attend the event, I will surely come.

Three-O is planning to have a Baguio Trip once our OJT is done. That's the trip that I would really love to join but my problem is money. Hopefully, I could save money for that trip. Well, we haven't finalized it yet since we still need to look for a place to stay and if ever that day would come, only three of us are sure. I just wish Chillax would come with us if not, Niko's friends will also do. Hahaha :D

Guys, please help me decide on what to buy. Since I want a digital camera as a graduation gift, I am still undecided between DSC-T77 and DSC-T700. Both are Sony Cybershot cameras. At first, I really want the latter but after I have read the Specifications for both cameras, I am now thinking twice. Though T700 has a better design, T77 weighs lighter and smaller plus it is less expensive too. So, now, what do you think is the better one?

Still confused.

It's not the effort that makes the girl smiles. It's the willingness of the guy to do those crazy effort just to make her smile.

OJT Three-O [Joanne, Cez and Niko]

The busy girl is back. Oh well, I'm so much busy with school, as usual. I am currently enjoying my On-The-Job training at Philippine National Bank though we couldn't practice our Networking skills there. It is not the job that we are enjoying but the new environment that we are into. It is truly something new for the three of us, rather all of us interns and trainees. During our first week, we were just given simple tasks and everything was about the database. Don't ask why. We were not able to file a request so that we can be transferred to the IT Department. But nevertheless, we don't have regrets because our five bosses (three vice presidents and two project managers) are all nice and friendly.

Of course, as a Systems Engineering student, I really wanna practice my skills in networking and troubleshooting but I can't because in the office, we are actually dealing with databases. But according to one of my professors, it is just okay because once we enter the corporate world, we will not know where will we be assigned. There are much more opportunities if we are knowledgeable not only in networking but also in database and programming.

Our office is actually good and buildings are overlooking because of the big glass window. I feel so lucky and grateful because we are assigned there because the people there are very much friendly and they wouldn't treat you as just a mere trainee. They are so kind and nice. If we accomplish something that they'd asked as to do, they would say thank you which is, I think, rare.

I usually enjoy because I am with my super fun friends, Niko and Joanne. Although at times they used to trick, tease and fool me, still, they are truly the friends I've wanting to have. Joanne is my partner in crime just so you know. I never thought that we will be this close because during our freshman year, she wasn't really my companion. Thanks to free sectioning. She has become my kasangga, my secret keeper and adviser. Niko, on the other hand, is like a brother to me. I used to call him kuya before. Ever since freshman year, we are really close. I used to consult to him my problems and he knows a lot of secrets.

Just wish us luck on our OJT. May we successfully finish it. It's fun, swear. That's why I'm excited and nervous at the same time to enter the corporate world.

Multiply Updates:
Fifth Day's Snap Shots, When Left Alone and OJT Trio Strikes for the Nth time

Now, I know... :(
I got it already...




I should be reviewing for my quiz in Free Elective later. I'm beginning to become lazy once more. I have lots of things to accomplish but I don't know where and how to start. Anyways, I will just be sharing some quotes sent by some of my friends. Some or rather most are heartbreaking.


"There are lots of instances when you feel that everything is going well between you and this person. You get together and share feelings, thinking that tomorrow, you will have something deeper only to realize the next morning that what happened is not a reality and the two of you can never be, and it will just be the same old story." --from Thets (I was deeply struck when I first read that quote. Oh well.)

"There are things better expressed in silence to spare self from rejection and losing that person. Let the action do the talking, in short. But if you still didn't get it, what's subtle for you yet obvious to others. It's either you are pathetically blind and damn insensitive or just freaking scared of what's next to happen" --from Cj (so damn true)

"Loving him is like breathing. So tell me, how can I stop?" --from Cj

"Guys use the word friendship to start love. Girls use the word friendship to end love." --from Thea

"I don't need someone perfect, don't even need a wealthy one. I just need someone who can understand and who can be with me in times I'm under my unwanted attitude." --from Joyce

"Sometimes there are some things you want to say to someone, words to say how important they are, how much they mean in your life. But even if you are so eager to let your heart speak, you still have to consider the factors around you. And after seeing how complicated the story would be, you have no choice but to stay where you are, confused and unhappy." --from Rey

"Sweetness of a person will make you fall in love but you get confused when you see the same person with the same sweetness with someone else." --from Elaize (Oh yeah!)

"Don't be cold to someone you care about just because that person couldn't realize your worth. Instead, be nice so they could realize what they've been missing." --from Elaize (such an eye-opener)

"If you want pain, if you like tears, if you need sleepless nights and suffereing, find a friend and fall in love. -Casper" --from Elaize (I don't want to believe this but is it true?)

"Always make your absence felt, in such a way that somebody misses you but let not your absence be so long that somebody starts learning to live without you." --from Camille (another realization)

"At one point, you have to face your heartaches alone - without expecting someone to hug you. And you also need to be known as you and not his girl." --from Jam

"It's painful to fall in love with someone who has someone else especially if you tried everything to ignore the feelings. Worst if that someone made you feel as if you are someone special but then you are just special and never would be loved." --from Rey (so very true!)

"It's hard to lose something that had never been yours, in any way you think of, you just have to learn to let go and accept the fact that while good things never last some doesn't even start." --from Elaize

"What's sad about loving someone? It is when you are not good enough coz somebody else occupies his mind and his heart and you know you can't compete with that." --from Niko

When you love someone, you can tell but when you are in love with someone, everyone else can tell.

I missed this big time. Being absent in the blogging world for quite a long time really isn't my thing but you know, I really have to do this. If you think that I was able to relax last semestral break, then, you are totally wrong. When the first semester of my senior year has ended, my busy days didn't stop there. As a matter of fact, it continues until this day.

We were busy looking for companies on which we can do our internship or on-the-job training. I admit, it was really hard. At first, we completed all the requirements needed by our professor for our endorsement letter to be signed. We looked for several companies through the web and called some through the phone. We even registered at Jobstreet and passed our resume to some companies. We were all pressured because it was really hard finding a good one most especially, if you have several competitors around coming from different colleges and universities, prestigious ones in fact. But we didn't lose hope.

The second semester has started and we were still clueless on where will be doing our internship. The first day wasn't really fun because I didn't see most of my friends. I stayed at school with Joanne and Niko until 7.30pm. Second day was just like the first. I wasn't able to see the person I wanted to see. We were quite fortunate because we have great professors, except for Practicum though. Don't ask why. He is so annoying.

That week, we tried visiting companies and fortunately, we were accepted on the first company we went to. It was some sort of luck. Yet, i don't know if we are indeed fortunate or not.

Our first day as student trainees started last Monday. We woke up early in the morning because our duty starts at 8am and ends at 5pm. We were late on the first day but good thing, they didn't count it as late. It was tiring, I must say. My body isn't used to those kind of routines. By the way, after our duty, we still need to go back to school to attend our last class which starts at 7.30pm and ends up at 9pm. It was so late but I guess, I have to deal with it. Welcome to the real world!

As to the second day of our internship, I felt weak and vulnerable. I don't know. Perhaps, I am still in the stage of adjusting and all that. But hopefully, everything will be fine as day goes by. I can't deny the fact that I'm enjoying though a part of me is not happy. I don't know why. Maybe because I'm yearning for something more. Well, it is still early. We can't tell what might happen next. Define craziness

I am not totally happy. Period.

I wonder why you are so afraid to give other person a chance to love you but so easy to give a try to the person that once, twice, always gives you a heartbreak.

Just now, I realized that my last post was about the Microsoft Certification Exam we took last week. I must say that it was really a success. Most of us passed. Last Saturday, my SD friends took their Certification Exams at DBWizards and just like us, they did well. They also passed. Congrats Dyei, Julius and Pabear!

Last Sunday, my ninong went back to Canada already. That's why last Saturday, we bonded like hell. He might come back and by that time, he'll bring with him Ninang Joan, Jan, Ken, Jiselle and Jana. I can't wait, as in. Hopefully, that vacation would happen this Christmas. Its been ages since they last celebrated Christmas here and it would be really memorable if they would.

Last Monday, I went to school to request for the true copy of grade which is actually a requirement for our On the Job Training. Only Joanne and I went to school because my friends didn't know that we'll go there. It's not that we want to keep it, but everytime we send group message, no one bothers to reply. It is really annoying. After that, we stayed in the Colegio for a little while until we decided to stroll at SM Manila. We ate first at everyone's favorite fastfood chain, McDonald's. She bought a pair of headset at PC Corner. Then we strolled and checked out some gadgets like PC, Laptop, Cellphone, iPod and DigiCam. Actually, what we always do in SM Manila if we don't feel like playing in Worlds of Fun and Quantum or singing in Popstar, we check for gadgets there. What do you expect from IT students? I always visit the desktop computer I want to acquire which is the HP A4460D. I'm really clueless what to buy first because there's a lot of things I want to have. Hay. Still undecided.

My Wishlist:
* HP A4460D
* Laptop Vaio
* Sony Cybershot DSC-T700
* External Hard Disk
* and a lot more

Last Thursday, I was out to Quiapo with mom and Ian. We had to buy a new analog for my brother's PSP. Good thing, Ian was really heading to Quiapo that day to buy MMC for his PSP, I guess. We met at SM Carriedo. Supposedly, I had to go there by myself and meet Ian but because I am not familiar with the place (even though I'm a Manila girl), I had to bring my mom with me. I am not used to going to that place, really. We headed to a mall near the church where you can see PSPs and cellphones everywhere. Fortunately, we found the thing that we needed.

After that, Ian brought us to the place where we can found lots of Hello Kitty items. Knowing me, I am really big fan of that super cutie cat. Ever since I was just a little girl, I am into it. In fact, I'm a collector. I bought a pair of slippers to be used for tomorrow's swimming party. I was really amazed. I might go back to buy more.

We had our merienda at Greenwich. It was a fun moment, a total bonding moment, indeed. We chatted and talked non-stop. I didn't expect that my mom and Ian would really get along pretty well. They shared stories. My mom even shared strange things about me that I'm keeping all these years. Oh well, at least, he knows a lot of things about me already. That bonding moment was really exceptional. We separated ways after we ate. He had to ride the LRT while my mom and I had to ride a jeepney.

By the way, my relatives in the States are here for a vacation. We have lots of balikbayans. And tomorrow, we will be having a swimming party for Claudine's 11th Birthday. Theme: Hannah Montana Best of Both Worlds Party

Usually, the thing that you've been looking for is actually just right in front of you. You just don't realize it.

I've been out of the blogging world for quite a while. The main reason was our Microsoft Certification Exam we took last Thursday. We had a three-day review in preparation for the exam. I already expected that only few will attend because of what happened last year where the review was really useless.

Anyway, day one happened last 10/21 which was a Monday. Joanne and I talked about it already that we will go to school early. So there, we arrived at around 8am which was supposed to be the beginning of the review session. But unfortunately, it didn't start on time. We just waited in one area there together with Niko, Ian and Marco though the three arrived late. The review session started at around 9:30am. At first, we were all concentrated and we were really listening to what our reviewer was trying to discuss and teach us. He was, by they way, Sir Dexter Dar. He was so nice. At the middle of the session, we felt the boredom already. Ian and Marco, as usual, made fun of me so I wasn't able to listen. They were harassing me. Hahaha :)

It was only a half-day review. Joanne and I were supposed to join the boys in visiting Rex in his house because he was leaving the day after. But Joanne suddenly changed her mind and instead, she wanted to join Cha, Jhen, Rey and Kelvin. As for me, I had no choice but to come with Joanne because I will be the only girl in case I join the boys. It was hard to decide because Rex is really nice to me and I bet, he was also expecting me to be there. But what can I do? Good thing, he was able to understand me. MCP Review: Day One

The second day of the review was just like the first day. Only few attended and from the Chillax Crew, only I, Joanne and Rey attended. The boys drunk last night. We didn't listen that much, though. Instead, we were busy chit-chatting and playing PSP. By the way, Rex flew already to US for his two-week vacation. After the review, we decided to drop by SM Manila to kill the time then met Niko and Gian there. We sang at Popstar then walked and strolled until we decided to go home.

We didn't attend the third day of the review because it was our Enrollment. Joanne and I decided to go there early because from our experiences before, we expected a lot of students falling in line and doing the same thing as ours. As I arrived there, I was stupefied with the long line. I saw Niko with Ryan but because, there were a lot of people behind them, I decided not to cut the line (at that moment). After Joanne arrived, we decided to fall in line. It was really hot there and our sweats were all over. Niko and Marco then called us telling us that there were three vacant seats there. We had no choice but to cut. Until we realized, we were in front and about to pay for the processing fee. I won't detail what happened next. All I know was that the entire process was indeed tiring and energy consuming but fun.

We just waited for our friends to finish and decided to have our lunch at SM Manila. We killed our time at Worlds of Fun where Ian and Marco spent a lot of money. We were there till 6pm without thinking that the MCP exam will be on the next day. The Crew's Teriyaki Trip

Cez, Niko, Joanne and Kath. Ian was the photographer.

The day has finally come for us third year and fourth year IT students with MCSE and MCDBA specializations. I went to MISNET in Makati with Joanne and Niko. As we arrived, we saw Cha, Marco, Kelvin, Gian and Rey who were about to take the exams. We suddenly felt the nervousness because we knew that after them, it will be our turn. We sat at the waiting area trying to calm ourselves - laughing and making fun of each other. Then the lady called Niko, meaning Joanne and I were left in the table. After 30 minutes, the lady called my name and from then on, my heart didn't stop from beating fast. I took the exam in the room where Niko was taking his. He finished first and he passed. I passed also, thank God for that. Two down and there's five more to go. Most of us passed the exams and I'm so thankful to God for that. It was really a blessing.

After the exam, we went to Glorietta to eat and stroll. But since most of us were sleepy because of lack of sleep, Niko, Joanne, Ian and I decided to go home while the rest was still there. I am so happy with the achievement that we have received and I do praise God for that. He answered our prayers. Dyei, Paul and Julius passed their certification exams also at DBWizards yesterday. No need for a second shot because we made it the first time we took it. Thanks for those who prayed. It really means a lot to us.

I might go to school tomorrow to get the transcript and the recommendation letter for our On the Job Training. I passed my resume to some companies and hopefully, I will be able to get responses from them this week. Please do pray that I will be able to do well in the interview and for my acceptance, of course. I badly need this one. Thanks in advance!

A lot has happened to my family these past few weeks and I can say that it wasn't the way I wanted it to be. But I cannot stop it from happening. Problems started to arise and I don't know what to do. My mind cannot stop from thinking what and where to start. Hopefully, everything will be fine.

If a person made you smile and laugh for how many times already, for sure that person can make you cry real tears too.

Grabbed from Maxine

GUYS' RULES
At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down

Now here are the rules from the male side.
These are our rules!
Please note... these are all numbered "1"
ON PURPOSE!


1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon
or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport.
And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.
not really..

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a Problem.
See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria 's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.
now i know..

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of them makes you sad or angry, then we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
tlga lang..

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched.
We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle, besides we know you will bring it up again later.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine...Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation,
or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;


But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

Pass this to as many men as you can -
to give them a laugh.

Pass this to as many women as you can -
to give them a bigger laugh


This made me laugh, swear. Perhaps, most of these are true. Yeah, I really think so. Well, now I know. Hahahahaha :)

You know you really love someone when you don't hate them from breaking your heart.

I really had a blast yesterday, as in. The day turned out to be more than what I expected it to be. Our plan started out last Tuesday when Rex asked a favor from me. I said yes for that favor and he joked me that he'll just treat me to return the favor. I joked on him that he should treat me to a movie. I didn't expect that he was that serious because that same day, he made a plan for Thursday which was yesterday. I texted the girls about the plan and he texted the boys. I received replies but most of the girls weren't sure if they can make it or not and the boys weren't replying as well. Only few did.

We just waited till Wednesday came and we were like thinking if the plan should push through or not because only five were sure then. I was quite sad because it was me who insisted it and they didn't even bother trying to join or what. Wednesday night, I was busy texting my friends who will come with me the next day. They were asking me if the plan should continue knowing that we were only few. I told them yes. So what if we were just five. It's their lost not ours. At least, we'll enjoy. It was all set.

Yesterday morning, Niko texted that he'll come with us. That means, we were 6 - Cez, Rex, Lai(Rex's gf), Ian, Niko and Marco. I was too excited then so were they. I was supposed to leave the house at 2pm but because of the heavy rain, I left at 2.30 in the afternoon. I met up with Marco at Abad Santos Station then we rode an LRT again going to Monumento. We went to 7-11 to meet up with Niko. Then Ian came next.

We decided to leave by riding a bus going to MRT-North Ave. where we will meet Rex and Lai. It was jampacked. It was only a 20-minute ride from there to Ortigas. We walked a little while until we reached The Podium. We watched Max Payne there. I didn't like the plot but the fighting scenes and the effects were truly amazing. Mark Wahlberg did a great job in the film. After an hour and 40 minutes, we decided to stroll. By the way, the theater there is so cool. I might watch there again. But too bad, it's kinda far from Tondo.

We went out the mall to walk and find a restaurant where we could have our dinner. We were joking and laughing while we were walking. Of course, we had picture-taking. That is one thing that should not be forgotten. We were kinda undecided where to eat but we settled with Texas Roadhouse Grill at El Pueblo. It was fun there. It really took us a long time choosing from the set of foods because of one reason, they are so expensive. We still ate there, though. Super duper thanks to Rex for the treat! :) The foods were yummy and great that's why the money we paid for it was so sulit. Heavy.

We were joking and laughing that time when a tall man entered the restaurant. From the time he entered, I knew it was James Yap. Yeah, we saw James Yap there. At first, Niko didn't recognize him and he didn't want to believe that it was James. He thought we were kidding but we weren't. Before we go, we had 2 sets of pictures with James. From then, we can't get over with what happened. He is nice, by the way.

We walked again from El Pueblo to Shangri-La Plaza and decided to play at Quantum. Lots and lots of fun memories there. The mall was closing so we left. We walked again until we reached Starbucks. We stayed there for an hour and have some coffee. After that, we decided to go home. I arrived at 11:30pm. Thanks friends for that super kaduper fun Thursday! Our Great Escape from Boredom

It was truly fun being with your friends. I'm so happy because my mom now allows me to go out with friends and go home late at night. I will surely miss this kind of moment once we enter the corporate world. That's why we need to seize and savor every moment we have with each other. I'm so much blessed for having them. Too bad for those who didn't come because they missed out a lot. I hope the next time we plan for another getaway, the entire troop will be able to come with us so that it will be more enjoying. I want another of this. Hahaha :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMINEM!

You know what's sweet? It's when you're sad, then he smiles at you and suddenly, you feel fine.

Before anything else, the quote above, it is really true. Well, in my case, it is. Whenever I feel bad, his smile is something I look forward to feel better. Hope he feels the same way. Oh yeah! Enough of this.

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Today is another pretty boring day, not so, I must say. Our grades our out and I've seen it already except for Theo. I passed and that's all I can say for now. I am so much satisfied with my grades. No complains at all. It's good, as in. Together with the release of grades is the release of how much our tuition fee for this coming semester would be. I was absolutely stupefied when a friend texted me and informed me that our tuition fee is 55 thousand. Who would have thought that our tuition fee is that big thinking that we are on our last semester and we only need to take 15 units? Oh come on, I really don't know what comprises that big amount but I'm pretty sure we have again sets of MOCs. I don't know where in this world my dad could get such huge amount. I'm expecting of a 40k but more than 50k, I didn't saw it coming.

We are now trying look for companies on which we can undergo on the job training. Unfortunately, Letran will not provide companies for us instead we are the ones who'll look for it. I have companies in mind, so hopefully, we'll be accepted there. But it will not be easy, believe me because even though it's just an OJT, we would still undergo test and interview and our acceptance is not guaranteed. Wish us luck. This is yet another nervous and new experience for us as we start to enter the corporate world. I'm excited but the nerves are still present.

Aside from that, I was able to exchange messages with my friends whom I missed a lot via text. We were actually finalizing tomorrow's plan. Hopefully, it will push through. I couldn't back out though because I insisted the plan. Yeah, I was the one who gave them the idea so the boys are truly excited while the girls, all of them are unsure except for me, of course. I knew it, I will be the muse for tomorrow's getaway. What will I do? It was me who started it and backing out is something that I can't do or else the boys will get mad at me. But I'm excited. I'm so bored here in the house and can't think of a productive thing to do. I wanna go out and unwind with friends.

I'm hoping and wishing with fingers crossed that our tomorrow's plan will push through. And I also pray that my girl friends would also join us.

You can tell if that person is someone special because no matter what kind of mood you are in, that person can always manage to make you smile.

Last Saturday, a godfather of mine, who happens to live in Canada, surprised us with his presence. He'll be staying here until the 26th. His eldest son, Jan, came here for a vacation last August if you could still remember. To let you know, Ninong Celso is one heck of a jolly and cheerful person. He has lots of jokes to share and laughs so loud. It is really fun to be with him.

Last Sunday, we participated in the annual La Naval Procession. Some of my friends and I met up at 7-11 near Park and Ride. Our calltime was at 2pm because our original plan was to pass the paper given to us early and then sneak. Most of them arrived late and we left at around 3pm. Good thing, it only took us 30 minutes to reach Sto. Domingo Church. We went directly to BDO, beside KFC because that was our meeting place according to our professor. We already saw Niko, Gian, Jl and Eunice waiting there. Our supposed plan was changed because according to our professor, he will only accept papers at around 5pm and that we should let the procession start first.

We waited for the procession to start and then follow San Vicente Liem dela Paz. We were able to see our professor and he accepted our papers right away. The boys (Niko, Ian, Rex) didn't join the procession instead they stayed in McDonald's near the church. While we, the girls, decided to join since it was our last. We had bonding moment with Dyei, Paul and Julius.

After that, we went to McDo to fetch the boys. They had to go to Rex's crib to play basketball that's why we decided to stroll at Trinoma. As we reached Trinoma, we ate first and then received a message coming from JL that their supposed game was cancelled. He just followed us in Trinoma but I didn't have any idea about the rest of the boys. After we ate, we strolled and took pictures. It was fun, I swear. We also checked some gadgets and I really want to buy a new desktop computer. But I'm still undecided because I also want a new digital camera as a graduation gift. Help me decide, friends. I really want both. La Naval Procession

Anyway, I started studying for the 2nd certification exam. We are scheduled to take it on the 23rd. I am nervous because by this time there will be no second shot. I have to give my best. I wanna pass, as in. This afternoon, we went to SM San Lazaro to shop. We dropped buy first at Starbucks to buy some drinks then later on, strolled. It was tiring.

I think, I'll end my post right here. I have to finish the 3rd Module of my MOC. I want to watch a movie. I miss the movie house. Hahaha :)

If you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders.

The quote above really struck me. If it's true then...

Hey! I'm back. After how many days or weeks rather of not posting, I'm here once more. A lot has happened from the time I stopped blogging for a little while up to this time. I can't seem to remember everything but of course, there were really some that I can say unforgettable.

Oh well, I was able to emceed for the event I was talking about on my last post. Yeah, even though my voice wasn't still good that time and I wasn't feeling well, I still managed to do my job. The reason, you wanna know what is it? It is because of my partner. He doesn't want to be alone in the stage doing the job. What can I do? I just can't resist any of my friends. Actually, when I tried to speak in the microphone, I find how ugly was my voice then and I felt that everyone would laugh at me as soon as I started speaking but my partner, which is Ian, consoled me so that I wouldn't feel bad about it. It was a success, I must say. We did great and I want to congratulate my groupmates for a job well done. E-Security

Last October 4, I attended a debut. It was my cousin's. Actually, she is one of the cousins whom I can say really close to my heart. Even though, I didn't feel like attending the party, I still went there since I was part of the 18 candles. I didn't enjoy it though. Don't ask too much. Thanks to him for saving me. I was bored and he was there, texting me all night long until we reached our house. He is really my savior. Reina's Masquerade

That same week was our exam week. I tell you now, I really didn't study that much. I mean, I wasn't really prepared at all. Why? I was too lazy then. I tried my very best to study and review but nothing was coming in. I don't know why. But I'm pretty much confident that I'll pass it. I'm very sure with that but I just don't know if my remarks are higher. Hopefully, they are.

Our last exam was PolSci but before we took it yesterday, we first attended a La Naval mass at Sto. Domingo Church. We woke up early since our calltime was at 8am but we left Park and Ride at 8:30am which means, we were late. The mass started at 9am but we arrived there pass 9am. I don't want to blame anybody. Hahaha :) It was jampacked, as usual. After that, we went back at Letran. We ate first then stayed at our room. I can say that of all the exams we took this Final term, Polsci was the most difficult of all. But I'm hoping and praying that we'll be able to pass all my subjects.

That same day, I had a bonding moment with Niko, Joanne, Cha, Dyei, Jhen, Kelvin, Julius and Marco. Too bad, Rex and Ian went home early because they had their own agenda last night but didn't push through for some reasons. Food tripping was the first thing we did yesterday afternoon. We ate sweet corn first. Then, I ate chicken balls though they ate fish balls too. I tried scramble, you know, the pink something which is like a shake with matching chocolate syrup. Do you get it? They let me try it. Why? Because for 19 years, I have never tried that kind of thing. I don't know if it is a drink or what. Promise. That was really my first time to taste it. Actually, I don't know if I like or not but I was able to finish a small cup of it and I was hoping that the chocolate syrup that was put in it was Hershey's. After the food trip, they decided to play Counter Strike. I don't know how to play that game and I don't have any interest on learning how to play it. It's just that I don't feel it. I just watched them trying to cope up with what they were doing but ended up knowing nothing. I just don't get it, really. Thanks to him once more for saving me from that boring moment.

And today is the last day of the first semester. We had a mass early this morning followed by a seminar entitled Microsoft Certification Tips and Tricks. I can say that it wasn't really a seminar at all. It was just like that the speaker was trying to give us advices on what should we do before the exam, the exam day itself and after the exam. It was quite informative, though. After that, we had a buffet lunch with the IT family. I expected a lot from it but I was so disappointed. I was expecting for a lot of sumptuous foods but the heck, only two viands were served. But it was a lot of fun. It was a bonding moment with the entire 4th year IT students.

They decided to play Counter Strike again and like yesterday, I was left alone in the corner of the computer shop texting. It was so boring but it was fun watching them play, shouting and laughing. We decided to stay in the catwalk for a while as the boys waited for the clock to strike at 5pm. They played Basketball at the Letran Gym. It was their first time that is why they were so excited. We watched them but we decided to go home early. We left the boys there, still playing. One Sem to go

Now, we really have a break that we've been wanting for so long but it kinda makes me sad when I try to think that few months from now, our college life will be over. In fact, I want to extend but I know we really can't. I hope we'll not part our ways as we go on our own lives in the future. It pains to think that we'll barely see each other and that the never ending bonding moments will be lessened. I will surely miss Chillax Crew, everything we've shared since first year were truly unbelievable and worth cherishing for. I will miss our laughtrips, mall hopping, bonding moments and that what-to-do-next moments. You know, they have been my companions ever since I entered Letran and I don't want to put an end to it. I hope that in the future we'll still see each other frequently, reuniting every month and reminiscing the memories of our college life. Chillax Crew is the best crew ever.

It is hard to admit that you are falling for a friend who treats you only as a friend. However, it is harder to figure out when someone treats you so special yet you are only friends.

Everything is somehow fine now.
Yet, I'm still confused.
I am sick. Fuckshit.
I lost my voice.
How can I be the emcee for tomorrow's event?
I don't want her to replace me. Amp.
I hope and pray to have my golden voice back.
Cez - Signing off.

Don't play love with the person who can play better.

I am definitely busy. Oh well, it is very obvious. After the success of our defense, we were all busy editing and revising for one last time, accomplishing our requirements for other subjects and preparing for our upcoming seminar where we are the organizers. We are all pressured but good thing, we're done with the thesis. We passed all the documents plus the technical manual last Monday. Finally.

Anyway, I'm in the state of confusion right now. Obviously, it is about how I really feel. I thought I found him already. I thought he is the one for me but it seems that I'm wrong with that kind of thinking. Now, everything seems to be different. All the efforts that we have made to maintain our status seems to be useless. I'm tired of asking myself why. We are almost there, I guess and then all of a sudden, after some unexpected things happened, we are like going back to where we were - total strangers. I hate this feeling.

I don't know what to think. During the past months that we have been trying to be close to each other, I really felt his concern and care for me. It's like we are trying to take things slow because we know whatever we want to happen can wait. We just have to focus on our top priorities first. But after what happened weeks ago, everything changed, not on my part but on his part. I admit, I am so much affected with that because I'm used to him being the funny guy that he is. I'm used to him being my constant textmate and kakulitan but how come, he seems to be changing.

I don't know what seems to be the problem but one thing's for sure, there is a reason behind that. And I'm really anxious to know what is it all about. If until Thursday, he still acts like that, I won't hesitate asking him about what's going on with him. I'm worried. I don't like to just drop everything off. We have worked hard for this.

I don't want to lose him. For the past nine months, he has become a super close friend of mine. I consider him as the closest guy in my heart. I used to share to him everything and he does it as well. We are not like the best friend type but I know for sure, we are close. He has become my constant textmate and chatmate. I'm afraid to lose him now that I trust him a lot, now that my mom likes him for me.

But he is indeed unpredictable. He is changing and I don't know what to do. You can't also blame me if I think that perhaps, he was just pretending that he cares when in fact, he's not and will never be. But a part of me doesn't want to think that way. Maybe because, I know, deep within me, he is special and he will always be.

Sometimes the people who are afraid of having commitment are the persons who know the real meaning of it.

Saturday (09/13/08) was the judgment day for all fourth year IT students of Letran as we went through the very nerve wracking final defense. My group was scheduled at 11am and yet, we were able to defend our thesis at around 4pm.

We were nervous, as usual. We were panicking because of the devices and equipments that we need for the actual presentation. Good thing, everything went so well. When we entered the room, it was filled with silence. My hands were cold then. We started the presentation and yet, the panel didn't let us finish our powerpoint presentation. Instead, we proceeded to the question and answer portion.

They threw a lot of questions and fortunately, we were able to answer them all. And the panelists were really nice to ours compared to the previous groups. We went out the room since they'll be having a deliberation. We were so confident that we will pass because we did answer all the questions correctly.

We entered the room and they began to talk about how satisfied they were and that our thesis was acceptable. Thus, we got a no revision verdict. It was really unexpected. I never thought that we would get such rating. All of our hardworks paid off. Thank you Lord. The rosary and the prayer are really powerful. We prayed before we started the defense. I think God really guided us all throughout the process.

My friends did pass too. Yey for us! I know we gave our best and it all paid off. I just can't help but smile.

The celebration for the success of our thesis was held at Rex's crib. Surprisingly, my mom allowed me to stay overnight there. It was indeed fun though there were some complicated things happened still, I enjoyed it so much. I didn't drink. Rex and Ian didn't allow me to.

My friends look funny when they're drunk. They made fun out of each other. They made fun of me. But it was an inuman session I could never forget. We slept at 5am and I woke up at 7am then went home at 7:30am.

I need to rest already. My eyes are beginning to close.

One of the worst feeling in the world is to doubt someone who you thought was never unquestionable.

OMG! I really can't believe that I'm already 19 years old and that a year from now, I won't be a teenager anymore. How time flies. I still remember the stressful days when we were just preparing for my big event - my debut. But hey, its been a year since that memorable day and up to now, I still can't get over that big day. As I reached 19, I feel that I'm old already and few years from now, I'll be having my own family. Stop. I won't be thinking that way. I'm young and forever will be. Haha :D

Anyway, I slept early the day before my birthday which was yesterday, the same day Mama Mary was born. I woke up early yesterday to attend mass at 6am. As I opened my eyes, I was surprised to see bunch of text messages greeting me "Happy Birthday!" I was indeed touched and moved. I really can't believe that they would really greet me that early. As a matter of fact, two of the closest guys in my life were the first ones who greeted me. After the mass, I decided to sleep again.

As I woke up once more, I received several text messages coming from my friends and loved ones. It was really touching because they did remember my special day. Perhaps because Mama Mary and I have the same birthday. I went to school at 2pm but before that, I offered a cake for Mama Mary.

As I arrived at school, I saw Joanne with her new haircut. Pretty much. Then, my friends started to come one by one. It was good to see Kath early that day. I missed the old her. Anyway, I received a lot of greetings coming from my friends but later on, I told them to shut up because I don't want others to know that it was my birthday. We attended a mass that's why we didn't have a class in Theo. Then discussion in Polsci and another discussion during SQL and SAP though we were dismissed super early.

We stayed at school for an hour because of the heavy rain. We were stranded. Until we reached the LRT, we saw an immense number of people waiting for the train to arrive. Darn it! Then we all went directly to my house for a mini celebration. It was indeed fun. Though it wasn't as grand as my 18th birthday, still, it was a memory to be treasured. even it rained really hard, they still went to our house to celebrate my birthday with me.

I'm just so thankful for having friends like them. They've been really wonderful ever since and I won't let them be taken away from me. We will be forever friends no matter what happen. I was so happy because I know they also enjoyed. Aside from spaghetti, asado, chiken, pinsit and leche flan, I also ordered 4 boxes of pizzas and 2 baskets of mojos as requested by them.

I want to thank everyone who texted me, who messaged and commented in Friendster, who called me on the phone and those who personally greeted me. I also want to thank Marco for the candy machine he has given me, Rex for the cute Hello Kitty spoon and fork and of course, Ian for the pink Hello Kitty keychain. It is really heartwarming that people really appreciate who I really am. Actually, I'm not asking for gifts. What I really want is to remember one of the most significant days in my life. But hey, Ian, Rex and Marco really spent money just to give me presents and I'm really touched. Thanks a bunch! :)

For pictures, visit my Multiply.

It's better to just quietly miss someone rather than let him know and just get no response.

Finally, I've got a new layout here. Oh yeah, I missed Photoshop-ping a lot and it is really a fulfillment that after how many months of not using that program, I was able to use it once more.

The theme is obviously Chillax Crew, the barkada where I truly belong aside from Thine Iced, of course. You see my main image? Isn't that cute? If you could only see my friends in person, you'll be surprised of how those pictures resemble them. Credits to my friend, Cha, for that super amazing and fascinating artwork.

By the way, the pic above was taken at the Walls of Intramuros after attending an IT Seminar. The seminar ended early so we decided to stay there for a while. Fun moments with friends once more.

Anyway, our final defense is just a week away from now and I'm starting to feel the nerves. This time, it is going to be harder. There's no room for consideration, I guess. I'm really nervous with our documents. It is one thing that I'm really worried about. We already finished doing the Chpaters 1-5. Kudos for that! Our adviser checked it already and we need to revise some parts. At least, we're already done with that and all we need to do now is to revise and edit. But still, there is a line up of tasks regarding our thesis that we still need to accomplish like the appendices, technical manual and miniature. And also, we have this what we call mock defense next week once our adviser approves our documents.

Busy days will still continue until next week. I know we really have to give our best shot on our final defense. Actually, we're not asking for a very high grade, what we need is a passing grade. What I need to do starting now is to study and master our thesis because I know lots of questions will be asked on us by our panelists. I hope on the 13th of September, our panelists will be nicer. How I really wish.

In just few days, I'll be turning older and still, I really can't believe. How time flies. I just can't feel that I'm already 19 years old. I still remember how stressed I was when we were planning for my debut party but look at now, its been a year since I celebrated one of the most memorable events in my life. That night was indeed full of blissful memories that I'm going to treasure for the rest of my life. I'm not planning for a big celebration but instead, I'm going to invite few friends to come over and just have fun. Hopefully, it won't rain. It's Mama Mary's birthday, as well.

I badly want a break. Sembreak, what's taking you so long?

It is better to wait for years for someone you are sure of than to grab that chance with someone who picks you up but drops you whenever he wants to.

Just sharing this artwork made by a friend of mine. It was created using Photoshop. See how cute it is? If you still can't get what the image is trying to portray, oh well, it's me. She also has done cutie images of some of my friends. If you want to see it, just go and visit Chillax Crew's Multiply and just feel free to comment.

Just a bit of update. Our thesis is showing a lot of progress though we have experienced problems a couple of days ago. But we're still doing fine. The deadline for Chapters 1-5 is this week and we haven't started the 4th chapter because the survey isn't complete yet. Just wish us luck. Everyone is experiencing the same problem so we don't need to worry that much. But we really have to work our ass off just to accomplish this and be able to pass it on Saturday.

Finally, we now have a keynote speaker for our seminar on the 27th of September. Hoping that we can learn a lot of things from her and may she will be able to awaken the minds of my fellow Senior IT students because they are capable of getting bored easily. We already received our budget and now, we can start the preparation. We are all hoping for a successful seminar. We are not actually hoping that our seminar would be the best, all we're asking is that we'll be able to pull this one off successfully.

Anyway, I haven't seen any of my grades and I'm kinda worried with my minors. But actually, I don't think that much about the midterm exams because I am more focus on the thesis. But hopefully, I have passing remarks in all of my subjects.

I missed Photoshop-ping. I'm wishing that I could find time doing all those stuffs that I'm really into. Its just that it is really hard now since we're dealing with a lot of school works. And by the way, Eraserheads Reunion Concert is set to kick this Saturday at Bonifacio Open Field. Tickets are available at Ticketworld. As much as I want to watch the concert, I really can't because I wasn't able to save money for it. Supposedly, it is a free concert but because of some conflicts and since one of the sponsors backed out (though it has been replaced right away), it isn't free anymore. How I wish I could be there but too bad for me.

No matter how plain and simple you are, there's someone who will secretly surely look at you as if you are the most perfect creature ever existed.

I have been doing a lot of things lately. Talking about being busy. School's like hell now. I have a lot of school stuffs to accomplish and I have been very stressed out since last week. On the other hand, I had some fun moments with friends during the weekend and it was actually a sort of brain break for us.

Rex celebrated his 20th birthday last Saturday at Red Box in Trinoma. That same day, my thesismates and I were supposed to deploy our proposed network infrastructure for UDM. Everything was planned, as in all set. I have been texting my thesismates since the day before just to remind them about the things that we need to do the next day. Until a text message coming from the UDM professor that he wasn't available and that we have to move the schedule to 4pm of the same day. It was kinda a conflict since Rex's birthday celebration will start at 7pm and yet we have to be in Trinoma at 6pm. We were trying to think of a better way and came up with an idea of continue what has been planned and we should do all the preparations ahead of time.

We also decided to meet up at Ian's crib in Pasay. It was actually my first time there. I rode an LRT going to Libertad and waited for Ian to fetch me. As soon as we saw each other, we rode a jeep going to his house and met up with my other two groupmates. We started crimping the cable and fixing all the things we need. After an hour there, we decided to go to UDM. We looked for Mr. Pineda right away and received a bad news. F*ck. The office to which we will be getting the internet connection was closed. I was totally disappointed when I heard it. We had no choice but to cancel and just reschedule our deployment. We just talked to Sir Pineda for a little while and decided to go home so we could still ready ourselves for the party that evening.

The party was absolutely one of the best nights in the life of the Chillax. It was indeed memorable. Everyone was enjoying it. I really had fun. We sang and grooved. We were all hyper. Beers and cocktails were all over. Some of my guy friends were tipsy and honestly, that was my first time to see them in that behavior. I just laughed at them. I just can't believe that when they got drunk, they'll be like that. All in all, it was one heck of a fun night. After party was held in Rex's crib. Surprisingly, my mom and dad allowed me to stay overnight in Rex's house. We just walked from Trinoma. I slept at 2.30am while some slept at 5am. We woke up at 8am. I went home at 11am.

Our deployment last Tuesday, well I can say, wasn't really successful because of that effin' guy who used to interfere as if he knew what we were doing. He just really can't understand that what we were doing is for our thesis and it is up to the institution if they want our proposal be implemented. What I really can't understand was that he continued to interfere and act like he knows everything when in fact, he can't understand a bit of what we were doing. I was pissed off so as to my thesismates but we just made fun of it.

But we still need to go back there for that deployment. We have to do that or else, we're doomed. Here comes the bad news, the submission of Chapters 1 to 5 will be next week and until now, we haven't started doing the fourth chapter yet. My gosh! I'm going crazy. Hopefully, everything will fall into its own places. The only problem we have as of the moment is the video. We just need it so badly. I'm hoping to accomplish the video this Saturday. I really do hope. Please do pray for us.

Next in line would be our Seminar. OMG! Until now, I haven't received any confirmation coming from the possible speakers that we have contacted. I'm hoping and praying that I would receive the confirmation before Monday. Oh well, I hate being stressed out but i just can't help but feel it. But I know, after these effin' and tiring thesis and seminar, everything will be back to normal.

I'm so confused right now. I'm trying to observe everything, trying to find the answers to the questions going on inside my mind but I just end up empty-handed. I know I will find it in the right time. I'm sorry because I really can't post here the details about this crazy feeling. I want to keep it a secret first until I'm sure about it.

By the way, please do pray that I won't get crazy. hahahaha :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINIA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN!

If you're not jealous, then you don't love the person. If you don't love the person, then you're not supposed to be jealous.

I absolutely missed this - posting an entry, sharing my thoughts and everyday activities. School is actually pulling me away to those things that I really love to do but I don't have the right to complain or what. In fact, I'm enjoying it. Though it really makes my head aches all the time, I still find a reason to smile. Perhaps because of the people I am with everyday, those friends whom I will never exchange for anything. We are all trying to balance our time and I can say, it is really tough.

I admit, I'm pressured right now, trying to balance everything. It has been a tough semester for me. The midterm examinations just ended today and I have taken one of the easiest exams. Thank God for that. I just hope and pray that I'll be able to pass all my exams and be able to get passing midterm grades. I didn't study that much and as a matter of fact, I wasn't really ready when I was taking the exams. Oh well, I've been out the whole day last Sunday. Instead of reviewing, I was with my family, having fun in Batangas. Who would think that I have exams the next day? That's why I was so nervous when I was taking the exams last Monday.

I am not sure if everything is falling into its own places. Our thesis is showing some progress as we start the deployment on Saturday and hoping to finish the survey thingy the next week. In few weeks, we will be having another nerve-wracking defense and for sure, that would be more difficult than the one we had last semester. Our Seminar hasn't shown a bit of progress because we decided to look for another speaker. Yet until now, I haven't received any confirmation. Our seminar was rescheduled to September 27 and that is a Saturday. We actually had no choice but to agree with that. But hopefully, we can pull off a very successful seminar. *fingers crossed*

Tomorrow, we will be attending our second IT seminar at 3pm-7pm. It was rescheduled eh. It was supposed to start at 8pm and end at 12nn. I'm hoping that it would be a better seminar. Aside from the deployment thingy that my thesismates will be having on Saturday, we will also celebrate Rex's birthday at Trinoma from 7pm to 12am then after party will be held at his crib. I'm excited but I don't know if I could still make it to the after party but I hope I could. That would probably be his last birthday here in Pinas because after we graduate, he'll fly to US already.

Anyway, I'm kinda confused right now. But I chose to keep it to myself for now because I'm afraid that someone out there would accidentally read it. To give you a hint, it is about how I feel. That's the only detail I could give for now.

And one more thing, my laptop is not working well right now and I'm totally pissed off. I don't know how to resolve all the problems arising. It is like a disease eh, there are several complications that keep on coming. I do wish it will return back to normal or else, I might ask for a new laptop. Just kidding.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REX!
HAPPY 37TH MONTHSARY THINE ICED!

He said, "you weren't supposed to mean this much to me, but you do." She said, "I know and I wasn't supposed to fall in love with you, but I did."

Last Friday, we attended the first IT Seminar organized by a group of MCSD students. Apparently, Dyei was a member of the group together with Paul and Julius. Their topic was IT Outsourcing and I must say that it was a success. Oh well, I was late and it was really a long story so I won't be elaborating it. After the seminar, I went home but eventually went to Rex's house to have fun with friends. We had kantahan and inuman session and I really had tons of fun. How I wish we were complete that time but we weren't. The girls went home at 7pm yet I arrived home at 9pm.

Last Saturday, I together with Daddy Carlo, Daddy Cesar and Ej fetched my balikbayan cousin, Jan Russell, at the airport. He is from Canada and he's here for a three-week vacation. To let you know, he speaks and understands a little Tagalog that's why we have to speak in English too. He is just a year younger than me and an incoming Freshman in University of British Columbia.

Last Sunday, we went to Cavite to drop the packages for Jan's auntie. It was quite a long drive but it was absolutely fun. We took our lunch there. Actually, his tita was surprised when he saw him because just then, we learned that she didn't have any idea that Jan would be coming to Pinas for a vacation. We had fun moment with his twin cousins, Alex and Anthony. The twins are really smart and friendly. We were supposed to drop by Tagaytay but kinda worried because of the continuous rain. So, we ended up going to SM Mall of Asia. As expected, there were lots of people there because it was a Sunday. That was also a perfect time to get our tickets for Alicia Keys concert. Yeah, you read it right. My tito, Jan's dad, bought us tickets to the concert because Alicia Keys is one of Jan's favorite RnB artists.

Yesterday, I took my first Midterm exam and it was quite difficult to think that it was just a major subject. But it doesn't bother me that much. After the exam, we went to our respective advisers for the consultation of our thesis. It is actually about the deployment thingy and the survey. Then, we all decided to unwind at Robinson's Place Manila. I was with Joanne, Jhen, Cha, Carla, Ian, Marco and Gian. We ate first and then decided to stroll around Rob since there are renovations made. We stayed at Tom's World to play but I didn't stay that long because I really have to go home already.

As soon as I arrived home, I saw my cousin and uncle all dressed up and prepared for the concert - Alicia Keys As I Am Live in Manila. I changed my clothes and off we went. We went directly to SMX Convention Center but it wasn't really the original venue. It was supposed to be held on the Open Field but since they are worried that the rain might suddenly pour, they decided to change the venue. A lot of people from different walks of life - rich, poor, celebrities, models, ordinary people - came there to witness Alicia Keys's live performances for the second time around. It was really jampacked. Three MTV VJs served as the emcees plus Luke Mijares and Duncan Ramos served as the front acts. I was bored when Luke and Duncan performed. Don't ask why. I wasn't the only one who got bored but almost all the people inside SMX including my cousin who doesn't know them. By the way, we were seated in front that's why we clearly saw the performers.

After the performances of the front acts, we waited for one hour before Alicia Keys went up the stage. She gave us very solid and entertaining performances. She is indeed beautiful and her voice is really amazing. I was fascinated with her performances. She's a good performer, indeed. She played her piano, as usual and she even danced. Her supposed last song was Like I'll Never See You Again but after she went down, everyone was screaming "MORE! MORE!" And our wish was granted. She even said, "I wouldn't let this end without you singing this song." Then the beat of No One started to play. We sang with her and everyone was so hyper that time. Until the music ended and she started to say her thanks to everyone who went there. She went down again but still the crowd kept on shouting "MORE!" So, she went back and sang her signature song If I Ain't Got You. She sang it beautifully. And that was the last song. It was such a great night, I swear. I love it.

Today, we went to Manila City Hall for some transactions and it took us four hours. I don't want to give so much details on that because I was kinda pissed with that. We later went to SM Manila to have our snacks. Then, I together with Joanne, Cha, Kelvin and Rey decided to go to school for the checking of our letters and surveys. We went home after that.

I'll try my best to keep this blog alive. I will never ever stop blogging. It's just that I will seldom post an entry because I am so busy with school. So, please bear with me.

Sometimes, we need to forget about the people from our past because there must have been a good reason why they didn’t make it to our future.

B R E A K I N G N E W S
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JANUARY 27, 2009
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Just now, I find time to somehow update my blog by posting something new. I’ve been out for ten days, I guess and I must admit, I missed blogging – something that I am used to do. It has been a tiresome and brain draining two weeks for me because if not, you would be able to read an entry everyday. It’s been really tough for me. Aside from thesis and semwork, our professors used to give us pain in the ass school works and quizzes.

But since I missed this, I will just share to you my weekend experience as we did a troubleshooting video which is apparently a requirement for our thesis. Well, actually, some groups performed the troubleshooting in person but because of lack of time, our professor agreed to the idea of having it videoed.


July 26, 2008
Saturday

Two groups (mine’s and Rex’s) agreed to perform the troubleshooting at Rex’s house in Muñoz. And since I don’t know how to get there, because I have only been there once in my entire life, Ian and I decided to meet at Monumento station. Our meeting time was 9:30am but I arrived at 10:30am. Yeah, I was late but I didn’t hear any complains. I saw him standing in front of National Book Store with Marco who is a groupmate of Rex. Afterwhich, we walked a little while and rode a jeepney. It wasn’t really a long ride but it was fun.

We reached Muñoz Market and walked. It was quite a long walk. Ian and Marco joked on me that they will run and leave me there because they knew that I don’t know how to get to Rex’s crib. But as what I’ve said, it was just a joke. Then after how many minutes of walking, we arrived at our destination. Rex was setting up all the devices that we need for our troubleshooting. We started installing Windows Server 2003 but experienced a lot of problems.

Kath came next then Niko. That means, we were six SE students working there. We tried our best to solve the problems that we have encountered yet ended up failing. We all decided to call a classmate and asked questions. At first, we weren’t able to solve it but later on, we noticed a bit of progress. While the rest of the crew was watching Pathology, Ian and I still faced the monitors and tried resolving the problem. It was around 7pm when we finally resolved it. Thank God for that. We started recording the video and the entire process ended at around 11pm. That was the only time we took our supper.

After that, we already went home. It was so tiring but amazingly fun. Ian walked me home as instructed by my mom. I arrived at our house at around 1am.


July 27, 2008
Sunday

I thought everything was okay but I was absolutely shocked when I read the text messages coming from Rex and Ian that the video we recorded last Saturday wasn’t able to play either in the videocam or in the computer. At first, I remained calm thinking that Rex will still find solution for it but after Rex called me, I felt that there was a heavy material fell in my head. I was quite pissed off but it wasn’t anyone’s fault. Good thing, Niko and his groupmates agreed to have their troubleshooting at Rex’s home. That was the time I felt a bit of relief because I know, we can still do something about it.

I tried contacting Ian but I couldn’t get any replies coming from him. Neither did I know that he fell into a deep sleep after talking to me on the phone. So, I just waited for his and Rex’s call if I could go there or not. And as soon as I received a call coming from Rex telling me to go there already, I hurriedly prepared and went off.

It was my first time to go to Rex’s house all by myself. Good thing, I arrived there safe. It was quite horrifying because there were a lot of tambays who would stare and glare at you as if they know you. Some looks were really frightening and I was just so worried. I just walked as fast as I could and be able to reach my destination. I should have texted anyone of them to fetch me at the market. If only I knew that I would experience such things, I should have gone there with Ian and not just all by myself. At least, it was a lesson learned for me. I will never go there alone. As soon as they heard it, they started laughing. They also agreed that I should not go there by myself only.

While Niko’s group started their troubleshooting, Ian and I played jackstone and I beat him. Yey! Then we had our turn and we made it sure that our video can be played again. After doing all the things we need to do, we went home. It was around 11pm when I arrived home.


I can say that my weekend was indeed fun. Though it was really tiresome and quite irritationg we managed to enjoy it. As of the moment, I’m still clueless if the classes tomorrow in Letran will be cut as a preparation for the Letran-Beda match-up. Everyone knows that it is the much-anticipated game of the season and we want to be part of that classic game. I just hope that we could watch the game live. Go for 7-0. Arriba Letran! Beat San Beda!

Go for someone who is not only proud to have you but will also take the risk even just an hour with you.

The Letran Information Technology Society had a General Assembly today. I don't know if we, fourth year students, are required to come but we did. Well, we came as part of our support for the organization and the course itself. We were told that the assembly will start at 8am that's why we arrived there early, around 8:30am, I guess. But too bad, it started at 9am.

I was able to talk with the PRO of Lapiang Liberal ng Letran. His name is Clarence, a second year Marketing student. He explained to me all their objectives and some of their platform but I didn't listen. Don't blame me, I wasn't in the mood that time. I was just pretending that I was listening but in fact, I wasn't. But it was cool. I might vote for him. He is a good spokesperson. He introduced me to the IT Representative which is Jim Good and he also talked to me. Oh well, I honestly won't vote for him because I have reserved my vote for Jeff Aceron. And it is all because of Eunice. They are friends eh.

Anyway, we really didn't enjoy the program itself but I enjoyed my friends' company. We were hyper, as in. We were all seated at the back of the SC Auditorium and since we are the seniors, we felt that we were superior. Got it? We were screaming loud, trying to joked on the performers, the emcees, the game and some other stuffs. Well, you can't blame us because it was a bit corny and funny. So, we made fun of it. Only few of the Seniors came to attend and yet, we managed to make an impact. Though the entire auditorium was dominated and filled with the Juniors. They were really in the mood and I know that they really enjoyed it. They had the loudest screams, by the way. And the last performers murdered Awit ng Kabataan.

After the assembly, we stayed in the catwalk first. We chatted and laughed like we always do. We had another set of picture taking. By the way, we had lots of pictures during the GA because of boredom, I think. Going back, we planned on what we will do next and we just settled on having our lunch at SM Manila. And I was really looking forward to another bonding moment with them. But Niko, Ian and Rex didn't go with us, instead, they decided to eat somewhere since Rex brought his car with him. We ate at McDonald's and stayed there for a little while after eating. We received a text coming from Rex and inviting us if we want to join on their joyride to Tagaytay. As much as we wanted to come, we really can't because the car is too small for us.

Eunice, JL, Marco and Thea went home after while the rest of the gang stayed at SM Manila. We went to Quantum and played arcades. It was fun. I enjoyed it though I felt a little dizzy. Afterwhich, Dyei, Joanne and I went home while some of them stayed there. This day is tiring but fun.

By the way, I want the hoodie I saw at Solo and I really want to buy it. And another thing, Letran Knights won once again after defeating the mighty UPHS Altas. It was a tough match because Letran never had the chance to lead the game until the last minute of the fourth quarter. As a matter of fact, there was a 20-point deficit favoring the Altas during the Second Quarter. But knowing the Knights, whatever happens, they still have this powerful spirit that always keeps them high. They never give up and they always show the true character of a Knight. With the way they played, I guess they have to practice and motivate themselves a lot more since they'll be facing the Mapua Cardinals on their next game. RJ Jazul did really great once more.