Hello! It's been a while since I visited this former home. I really missed blogging in Blogger but I've already found my new home and this time, I already have my own domain.
It took me a year of contemplation before I finally gave in.
I hope to see you all in my new haven.
Ever since high school, I really wanted to learn how to drive. I thought it was cool and easy, especially when I watch my dad, uncles, cousins and friends do it. But I never had the chance to just even try. My mom worries a lot, my uncle doesn't want to teach me (I think he is scared for me) and our car is a manual.
Few weeks before I left for California, I thought of enrolling myself to a driving school because a car is a must-have in San Diego. Yes, they have buses but they arrive and depart on a specific time. Also, the travel time from our apartment to our office, by car, is just 15-20 minutes compared to riding a bus which will take more than that because you need to ride 2 different buses. However, given the limited time, I wasn't able to enroll.
Good thing, there's a friend of mine who doesn't mind picking me up from our apartment to office and vice versa. But when he left for a six-week vacation, I felt the urgency of learning how to drive. Though it was already a plan.
Getting a license here is way harder than in the Philippines. Yes, there is a written exam and behind the wheel too. Before taking the exam, you need to prepare ahead of time. You need the California Driver's Handbook. You need to read and review because the questions that will appear are not simply the traffic signs. Some questions are situational. And believe me when I say that some really fail. It took me two tries to pass it.
The behind the wheel test is something that should not be taken for granted because it is a legit one. An examiner will ride the car with you and he/she will evaluate your driving based on the scoresheet. And many Filipinos fail the test, especially those who come here and just take it, without reviewing the handbook or going to a driving school.
And now, I am so happy to share with you that I am now a ceritified California driver. I passed the test today, thank God.
Friendship has always been a big deal to me. Because when it comes to friends, I invest all my trust which is also the reason why I only have a few. Just like any relationship, there's no perfect friendship. You will discover who they really are as time goes by. When it comes to my friends, I ignore their flaws and imperfections because for me friendship matters most. But what saddening is that the person you thought you knew has become a total stranger.
There were times that I just thought because I used to ignore all her flaws, I got affected big time. If only I was observant, I could have prepared myself and accepted it early on. Or maybe because, we are just casual friends, blinded by the idea that we are close because we talk a lot in the office, share a lot of stories and always together during team dinners and team buildings. But I forgot that outside work, we haven't gone out except for my house invitations.
I honestly admit that I have my own faults too. All of a sudden, I've become cold, not talking and treating her just a mere colleague. I cannot tolerate the attitude, I cannot pretend that everything is okay and I cannot even let her know because I realized we are just casual friends.
But despite everything, I want us to be okay, to go back to normal and I will try (not promise) that from being casual friends, we will be more than that, close friends perhaps. The things is, for now, I want to calm myself, take away all the annoyance I have for her but I don't know where to start. I want to be the better person between the two of us, trying to understand where she's coming from and accepting that what she is now is the real her.