Tuesday, October 25, 2011


In between work, here I am, writing something and updating my not so abandoned blog. Today is my first day of working from home and honestly, I really don't like this idea. I still prefer going to office, commuting and beating the rush hour. But for this week, I have to be here at home, working where Thursday and Friday should be on "as needed basis" only.

The reason for this work from setup is my deep wound on my right thigh. It started as a swollen insect bite. Well, we thought it was an insect bite but we didn't have an idea that it was worse than that. I have been experiencing pain since Wednesday but I just ignored it because it just looked like a mosquito bite gone worst. But last Friday was so different. It was so painful that I couldn't walk. And since I had to commute way back home, I decided to text my uncle and he just fetched me from the office.

I was crying because of pain last weekend. It wasn't tolerable anymore. It's getting worst. And as I was writing this, I was having goosebumps. Since I couldn't take it anymore, my mom decided to have it checked. I was really scared last Sunday night because my cousin, who is apparently a Med student, checked it and told me that the worst possible thing that could happen would be operation. And knowing me, I am really scared of injection.

Yesterday, we went to my favorite doctor. To give you a background, I have been visiting this doctor since February of this year and he is my favorite already. He is really nice to his patients and wears a smile all the time. And of all the doctors I have known, he is the only one who would actually utter sorry after hurting his patient because he has to. He removed the "should be removed" part of my wound and I was really scared to death. It was painful and I had no anesthesia. Though it was not super duper painful. Whenever I said "Ouch", he will say, "Sorry". See, he is really a nice doctor.

So after the "mini operation", he covered my wound and instructed my uncle and mom on what to do to clean my wound so it would heal easily. Afterwards, he said that I should be injected with anti-tetanus which made me scare more. But he has good hands and I didn't feel any pain when he did the thing. He also advised me to take 4-5 days of rest which resulted to this, me working from home.

That was the story of this set-up. I have a super long weekend. Well, I'm wondering if I could enter the premises on Wednesday next week. I hope they didn't block my badge or else I have to drop by the 7th floor first and fix everything.

I hope my wound would heal easily. And I thank God for giving me a wonder mom. I love you, Momsie! :)

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Back on Track

I have been so inactive lately. I have tons of things to deal with and I just can't find enough time to stay online like I used to before.

Just a little bit of update, I'm still working in the same company. I've just turned one there together with my super friend, Dyei. A big hooray for us. We have just one more year and we can already resign. But kidding aside, yeah, after a year, our bond with the company will be over and we're gonna decide if we're going to stay or not. I'm still 50-50 though. I want to stay because it's really a huge company and my chances of getting onshore is big. However, there's this thing that keeps pushing me to resign as early as now. It's kinda personal and disclosing it here wouldn't be safe. And besides, I'm not ready yet to share it with anyone, except for Dyei.

Well, work is keeping me away from the things I want to do but I just can't let that happen. If time permits, I read a book. I've just finished reading The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks. Just last week, I bought another Nicholas Sparks book and it's The Last Song. I'm planning to read it later but let's see.

Tomorrow, we'll be watching Harry Potter in my favorite cinema, Trinoma Cinema. Yay! I feel like I'm the only one left who has not watched it. Like hello, everyone's been talking about it and I've actually skipped a lot of Tumblr posts just because I don't want to be spoiled.

Lots of plans, most didn't push through but hopefully, some will do. I'm planning to visit a salon and have my hair treated but I remembered, I just did two weeks ago. So, I'm just planning to have a haircut and have my eyebrows threaded. I want to feel good. I've been so down, stressed and depressed for the past few months and I have to get back on track.

I have a super random post here. I promise to post a sensible one next time.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Awesome March.

March has been some sort of a fun month for me. There were lots of parties and celebrations everywhere, my own way of escaping reality.

Yipee's 7th Birthday was held last March 20, 2011 at Bella Ibarra in QC with a theme of Pop (MJ) and Rap (FM). It was one heck of a great night with loads of fun and enjoyment. I was wearing an original Super Proxy shirt because I was one of the Super Proxy Gals that night. And my Fedora Hat, love it? I bought that a day before the party to complete my outfit. Heehee.

Nanay celebrated her 80th birthday with family and some friends last March 21, 2011. I was so late because I had a work that day. But good thing, there were still some guests when I arrived so I still felt like partying. Lots of yummy foods were served and my grandma's Kare-Kare, well, I wouldn't trade it for anything. It has always been my favorite.

And for the record, I must admit that I'm suffering depression (clinical, I guess) for the past months. I still don't know how to handle the situation but I hope I will be fine pretty soon. I've just found it recently because I have been experiencing all the symptoms since December. Please do pray for me. Thanks! :)

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Boring Weekend.

The week that has passed was really exhausting for me. The supposed deadline of my task was on Friday but due to some changes, it was moved to sometime this week. I stayed quite long in the office and even used my lunchtime just to be able to finish it. I only have one test condition left then I am off for a review.

My weekend was not a blast or exciting. I just stayed all day yesterday and caught up with the episodes of the three series I missed. The Vampire Diaries gets more and more exciting. I watched four episodes of Gossip Girl. I missed out a lot. Good thing, yesterday was more of a free day for me.

I also watched last night A Little Thing Called Love. It was a good movie, I must say. The lead guy character is cute so as the female lead. It has a light story that everyone can relate, I guess. And I even cried on the part that the girl was confessing her feelings to the guy. I can feel her pain, swear. But when the movie has come to its end, I was like, "that was it?". I was really asking for more and wondering what could happen after that. But overall, it was a good movie. It's a Thai film, by the way.

I had my blood extracted this morning and I was really scared. I almost threw up upon seeing the blood being taken away from me. After that, I returned back to sleep. I also watched Step Up 3 today. I haven't watched that movie not until today. I know, I was so late but hey, I just can't fit it into my hectic schedule. If you could just see my organizer, you'll be surprised with all the things that I need to accomplish.

Baby Lyle paid me a visit a while ago. He was with his mom, Lai. I missed them both. I haven't seen them for about a year, I guess. Lyle will be celebrating his second birthday on the 19th and he's going to have a celebration. How cool is that? Probably, it's going to be a mini reunion with college friends, as well. I can't wait to see them all.

I'm going back to work again tomorrow. Travelling from our house to the office and vice versa was really tiring. I might rent a house or something if my Dad permits me so. Tomorrow's going to be a not so good day for me. I know that, for sure. I don't know how to face tomorrow. Just wish me luck. I hope I won't feel depressed.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Oh, shopping.

This week has been the toughest one so far. I was given tons of work and I didn't know what to do first. But big thanks to my supervisor for always helping me out whenever I experience problems with my programs. However, she will be leaving for the US soon so I don't know what to expect in the coming months.

Yesterday was somehow a good day. I'm still in the same process. I'm still trying my best to cope up with everything that is happening in my life so far. However, we're still in good, speaking terms. I don't know how we, rather I, manage to do that despite the terrible pain I feel whenever we see each other.

So, to reward myself after a very exhausting week in the office, I went shopping with my mom this afternoon. I haven't shopped for quite a while. It has some kind of therapeutic effect on me. I have bought two new pairs of shoes, blouse and skirt. How I love shoes. I have tons of it though I've worn some of them once or twice only. I have this special love with shoes and I don't know why.

Tomorrow, I don't know if I can have enough rest or what because I'm planning to work on the urgent task that was given to me two weeks ago. It is due on the first of week of March and the program still encounters error. I have to take a second look on it so by Monday, all I need is to test the program.

Wish me luck with the career I have chosen. I have never thought that I would do coding. It never crossed my mind ever since. Aside from that, I want to feel better already.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Hello, simple layout

Since I am already a professional now, I have decided to keep the layout of my blog simple but cute. And honestly, I've been so lazy creating creative and colorful layouts so I now present to you the new image of Walkingdoll.

I practically miss blogging. I have been so inactive and just so you know, this blog has been my threshold of thoughts since my freshman year in college. I don't want to abandon this and I still want to write once in a while.

These past few months have been so difficult for me. Well, actually, up to now, but I'm trying my best to divert my attention to other things. But as what I have always said, it has been more than two months and I still feel the same. Nothing has seemed to change. Even if I have already said that I will leave all the painful memories behind and no more dramas this year, still, there are moments that I couldn't help but cry. It is actually driving me insane.

Well, thanks to my friends for always being there. Whenever I need someone to talk to, they are more than willing to listen. I hope I can tell to them everything because I admit, there are some things that I just couldn't share to them, for now.

Of all the advices I have received, the ignore part is the one thing, that I must say, I couldn't do for now. I have been so damn attached and staying away is the least thing I could do. I want to save whatever I can save and besides, it won't change anything if I'll choose to stay away.

All I know is that I just want to be okay. And I know God will help me make it through.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Pain is inevitable. It will always part of the life we are living. Well, I have to agree. Without pain, life is so much easier to live. No thrills, no challenges. For the past three months, I have been in the most complicated situation ever that giving up is the first thing that came into my mind. But the funny thing is, I never did. Perhaps, because I couldn't. You know what's funnier, I have practiced my so-called speech and yet, I wasn't able to deliver it.

Just a month ago, I was in the most crucial stage. Emotional stress ate me whole that my everyday routine, even my work and eating habits, had been affected big time. It was so difficult to handle. I have been crying for two weeks straight, my chest felt so heavy and my head was really in pain that all I wanna do was lay down and sleep. I have also come to the point of having thoughts of dying. Why? Because it was too hard to handle that I thought I couldn't get it through.

But then, thank God for He has never left my side and for helping me get past it. Right now, I must admit, I'm still not okay and happy but I'm coping and learning to accept things as it is. I have my own mistakes and lessons learned. I want to regret and hate but I couldn't because I know I have been very happy despite all the pain it caused me.

I may not go straight into details why I was like that and why I'm still in the emo stage but I promise, I will be fine soon. So, please bear with me why all of my Twitter and Tumblr posts were so emotional.

Well, I guess, it takes time of getting used to and as far as I'm concerned, I'm coping easily. I can now laugh hard, smile like I used to and my tulala moments have been lessened. Applaud me my dear friends for being able to get through that difficult situation. Thank you for those who prayed and gave me advices. It really helped me a lot.

So, right now, I decided to focus on things that will make me happy. I have so many plans for 2011 and I hope I can do everything within this year. 2011, please be good to me.

And by the way, I missed blogging.