Tuesday, December 25, 2007

You can always trust a dishonest man than honest. It is the honest man you should not trust for you never know when he could be dishonest. ~Capt. Jack Sparrow

First of all, I want to greet everyone a very happy Christmas. I hope you have already felt the real essence of this special event. May God continue to bless you and your family with wonderful gifts. But don't forget to pray, thank God, ask for forgiveness and greet his one and only son, Jesus, a happy birthday.

Anyway, we, as well, celebrated Christmas just like how anyone else did. Last night, we had our Noche Buena. Foods ruled the dining table. I so love the hot chocolate of my grandma. Something that I'm really looking forward whenever Christmas and New Year arrive. This morning, we attended the mass and visited my other grandma. We had simple gathering here in the house because the real reunion will be on the 1st of January.

I have received so many greetings from my relatives and friends. From yesterday morning until now, I am still receiving bunch of text messages. I am just so touched. Since I'm already 18, I'm not expecting for gifts or presents though I received a number.

And also, I was able to chat with my dad in Saudi and cousins in Singapore. I miss my dad so much. I hope he was here as we celebrate the coming of Christ. As to my tito, tita and cousins in Singapore, they also prepared foods for their Noche Buena. But they'll be coming back here on the 31st minus Kuya Ryan and Ate Janis because they just had visited Pinas eh.

Only yesterday when I bought presents for my inaanaks. My gawd!!! I have 6 inaanaks, to think that I'm just 18 and I know that the number will continue to grow as I grow old. But I didn't use my money, I used my mom's. haha :D Of course, I have no money yet plus we will be having an exchange gift on the 1st and my mom told me that I should used my own money in buying that gift.

I just have to end this post. I can't think of something sensible now. haha :P
Again, Merry Christmas everyone!

Friday, December 21, 2007

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than dreams. ~Dr. Seuss

The Letran community had our very own Christmas Party last night. But we don't call it as Christmas Party but we fondly called it as Arriba Fest. It is actually an annual event but that was my first time to attend because the band who performed were really great. Liquors and cigarettes were all over the campus but they were very strict when it comes to dress code.

I arrived there earlier than the others because I had to meet Kath at the Colegio. Since it was still early, Kath, Ian and I decided to drop by SM Manila and eat because we believe that we couldn't eat once the show starts. At around 6pm when we went back at the Colegio and waited for our friends to arrive.

We entered the Colegio at around 7pm and looked for a good place. Fortunately, we found seats in front so we could easily see the performers for the night. It was the best event I had ever attended in Letran. Well, guess who came there to perform. They were none other than Hilera, Sugarfree, Sandwich and of course, Parokya ni Edgar. They really rocked Letran as they had their own performances.

I so love the night. The fact that I have seen Raymund Marasigan makes me wanna scream out loud. I just love him. haha :P My friends made a way so we could stay in front to vividly see the bands. Luckily, we were always in front so I was able to see how good they were and how good looking Ivan, Chris, Raymund, Vinci and Buwi are. haha :D I've gotten the chance to take pictures and videos, as well.

Though we were tired, we didn't mind it. What matter is we've got the chance to see them closely. I love all of their performances. They really did great. I'm looking forward to another one. I enjoyed the night so much. It was a blast, superb indeed.

I didn't want to end the night but I know we have to. After the show, that was the time I felt tired, as in. I had some body aches because I was being bumped for so many times. We didn't mind the persons behind us because what matters to us were the bands who performed.

Before we went home, we took a rest for a little while and had some picture-taking. When we felt the urge of going home, we finally decided to go out of Letran. Yet, we stayed at the gate for a couple of minutes. When Daddy Carlo texted me that he was there already, they walked me to where the car was and I said goodbye to them. Well, they went to Ian's crib and had an overnight there. How I wish I was there as well.

Pictures and videos are now uploaded in my Multiply.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

To love somebody is so risky and indeed very tiring. Sometimes, it seems you've already done everything to the person but then, your existence remains unseen.

Last night, I had one of the best nights in my teenage life. We had an IT Knights Out held at Temple Bar in Greenbelt 2. Well, it was a requirement. I came there not because it is required to but because I really want to. That was my first time to enter a bar, actually.

I went to the place with my two handsome cousins using Kuya Wowie's car. We fetched his friends and then we went to Greenbelt. We walked for a little while until we reached Temple Bar. It was just a small bar but it looks nice. I went upstairs since my friends were already there at the VIP room. There was a program going on hosted by two of the LITS officers. Good thing, I came in late because during the first part, they got bored because of the weird and corny games.

We had two stubs for our drinks. They took one glass of Margarita for me. That was my first time again to drink that kind of liquor. I was advised to drink vodka but I opted for a Margarita. The rest of the girls took the same drink. They didn't like it but me, I liked it. haha :P When I finished drinking, I suddenly felt dizzy. haha :p Good thing, they were there to talk to me non-stop.

After a while, we all decided to go down and dance. I didn't get tipsy nor hyper. We danced until we dropped. It was so enjoying. I had lots of fun. My friends were there though we were not complete. It was such a nice experience. I'm looking forward to another one. Our batch was the naughtiest of all. haha :P We were so noisy and we just enjoyed every beat of the music being played. The boys were okay, as well. They also danced. They were not shy dancing in the dance floor.

It was one of the best experiences I had in my life. I'm loving my college life and I don't want to put an end to it. haha :p Oh, by the way, he was there and I was surprised to see him. He came late, as well. He was very vocal that he will not come yet he was there. Take note, his friends were absent, he was the only one in their group who was present. He enjoyed the night away as much as we enjoyed it. We really had a blast. My guy friends didn't get tipsy but girls did.

Here are some pics. Guess who among them is him. haha ;P More pics in my Multiply.

Greetings Galore!
Dec. 14 - Happy Birthday Serj
Dec. 14 - Happy 29th Monthsary Thine Iced
Dec. 16 - Happy Birthday Arjoe

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Love isn't a decision. It's a feeling. If we could decide who to love, it would be much simpler, but how much less magical. ~South Park

I'm just getting so emotional now. I have been hurt again but actually, everyday, I am in pain. You know how hard it is to pretend that you are really okay but you know deep inside, you aren't. You know how difficult it is to act like you are fine yet you know deep within you, you're far from being one.

In my case, I'm feeling it all. Yeah, I admit, I'm just pretending that I am so much fine but I know I am not. I'm acting like I moved on already though I know, I'm still into him. I keep on telling my friends that I'm over him but I know deep within me, I am still longing for him. Yes I know, I decided to give up because I know I don't have any chances at all but giving up doesn't necessarily means that I'm moving on.

I just can't move on. I tried really hard but I can't and I don't know why. When I decided to give up on whatever feelings I have for him, I thought I could move on as well. I succeeded on giving up because I'm not hoping nor expecting for anything now. Yet, the feeling is still on fire. I just can't help it. Because whenever he's around, my heart keeps on pounding really fast.

Whenever I pray before I sleep, I always ask God to help me get through him, to help me forget about him and to help me move on. But I guess, it is not the right time yet. Maybe, I have to live my college life with this. As he continues building friendship with my crew, it's getting harder and harder on my part. I don't know when can I say that I'm finally free from whatever feelings I have for this undeserving guy but I'm anxiously waiting for that time.

He is very different from his friend because his friend is very much friendly and approachable. He is so suplado as if he is the most good looking guy in the world as what my friend used to tell me. Yeah, he really is suplado. He never looks at me nor say hi. He is very close to my friends yet he never bothers doing the same thing to us who are not close to him yet.

Just this morning, I didn't expect that we will meet along the way because he is a sure late comer. So, I felt my heart beat faster than normal. I looked at him but he didn't bother looking at me too. How suplado, I told to myself. Then I continued walking and I felt that tears wanted to run down from my eyes. But I controlled it. Yeah, I almost cried. The pain it brought was really different. I was almost there in my room when I decided to enter the restroom. After a couple of minutes, I went out and decided to go to my room. To my surprised, he was there and we met again along our way. You know what I did? I continued walking without looking at him. I was hurt, I admit and the fact that it was still fresh, made me wanna hate him. I don't know if I did the right thing but you know, I freaking felt bad with what happened. How dare him? After all, we have seen each other in the mall one time and he even smiled at me. He was the one who smiled at me first and then I smiled back. Then now, we just walked and pretended that we don't know each other.

It was so goddamn painful. I have been liking him for a long time now and I haven't felt bad the way I felt today. I didn't dare to look at him the entire day because it made me hate him more. Why he is like that? He continues leaving marks of needles in my heart. He doesn't have any idea about my sufferings because of him. I hate him yet I couldn't stop this effin' feeling. I hate myself for being blinded until now.

I don't know the right solution to this. I want to get over him as soon as possible. I want this crazy feelings to end now. I want to erase him into my life. But how can I?

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

When you can't remember why you're hurt, that's the time you are already healed.

Sorry for not posting that much. I am very much busy with school. You know, our school works are all piled up now. Perhaps, I will be busy until next week. But I can't wait for the Christmas vacation which will start on the 21st of December.

We just had met our thesis adviser, no, my thesismate already met our adviser. I was not able to meet her because of my hectic schedule. But hopefully, I could meet her one of these days. Our supposed consultation today didn't push through because we were too busy.

I have so many assignments and projects to accomplish. Yet, I'm getting lazy again. My brain cells don't want to work right now and I don't know why. Maybe, because of the excitement for Saturday's event. We have to submit our project in Multimedia tomorrow but it is still unsure if there will be classes tomorrow because of the nationwide strike. But I'm hoping that we will have classes tomorrow because of the film showing.

On Friday, my mom will accompany me to buy Christmas gifts for my friends. I haven't bought gifts for them eh. And right now, I still don't have any idea of what I should give to them.

On Saturday morning, my thesismate and I will visit PLM to pass the letter of approval. We opted for their internet laboratory as our subject for study. We are hoping to talk to the president and the librarian, as well. And hopefully, they will approve it. We need it so badly.

And on the evening, I am so excited with the IT Knight Out. Oh yeah! It's party time for all Juniors and Seniors IT students. Saturday Night Out for us. The party will be held at Temple Bar in Greenbelt 2. I really can't wait. I won't be drinking too much. I have to know my limit. They are planning of an overnight yet I don't think if I will be allowed to go. But still, I'm so excited with that party. That would be my first time.

Rest Day on Sunday and preparation for the quiz on Monday. Next week is Letran's College Week. We will be celebrating Letran's 387th Foundation Day. Booths will rule the grounds again. There will be lots of exhibits and programs. Probably, we will not be doing anything by next week.

Friday, December 7, 2007

It's hard to believe that a man is telling the truth when you know that you would lie if you were in his place. ~Henry Louis Mencken

I have spent the entire day facing my laptop because I have to accomplish my assignments due next week. I'm very busy. Early morning after taking my breakfast, I opened my laptop and tried to do my first assignment in IT Elective. Well, I know I've accomplished something but a little only. I was just too lazy. Because whenever I face my laptop, I have been always tempted to go online. So, that entire morning, I was just browsing the internet.

Later this afternoon, I have decided to go malling. I was bored. Camille, my oh so maldita cousin and I went to SM San Lazaro. Well, that mall is just one jeep away from us so I can get there whenever I want by spending only 15 pesos, take note, that's back and forth already. I went there with of course, money in my pocket because the day before, I was planning to buy new outfit for Christmas. I'm really excited about it as if I'm still a 5-year old kid waiting for the gift from Santa Claus.

Anyway, we strolled and went inside every stall we passed by trying to look for a nice, cute and simple outfit. I couldn't find a good one but I was eyeing for something already. And after an hour of walking and still couldn't find something to buy, I settled down with a cute jumper dress I saw at Plains and Prints. And since it is a jumper, I have to look for something that I could wear inside of it. We were walking for some minutes, looking for a white top since the color of the jumper dress is a combination of blue and white. It was really difficult huh?! But it was a cool thing. And finally, I have found the perfect partner for it at Folded and Hung and I didn't hesitate to buy it.

After grabbing all the things that I need, we decided to try designing a mini cake at Goldilocks as a gift for my brother because tomorrow is his birthday. We tried our best and exerted a lot of efforts for that mini cake to look good but I guess, it wasn't good enough. But hey, for first timers like us, it was good already. After finishing the cake designing, we went home.

Finally, I'm done with my assignment in IT Elective and with the researching for the project in our Comp108. I just need to practice Macromedia Flash MX Professional so that I could catch up with the next things that we will going to do.

Monday, December 3, 2007

It's funny when all those unforgettable moments you had together could be the reason why you find it hard to give up.

I wasn't feeling well when I left the house this morning. My colds is driving me crazy plus I felt so dizzy. This morning was one of the worse mornings of my life. Come to think of it, I left the house earlier but I was late on my first subject. Well, that effin' LRT was the reason why. I arrived at the Tayuman station around 10am and I saw an immense number of people waiting for the train to arrive. Well, to my surprise, the train was full of people inside so I let that train passed me by. The second train came and it was like the first train so I let it again passed by. And now, I waited for the third train and it was still full of people but I did my best to get in. I was being pushed and you know, our bodies were too close to each other. I hate it. When I arrived at the Central Station, I saw Niko and Ian who rode the same train and had the same reaction. Well, it was so damn crazy.

Anyway, we had our reporting in Theo6 yet I didn't feel that it was successful. I know all of us did our very best but I guess, those weren't enough. But I do appreciate my groupmates' efforts and that's okay with me. It wasn't graded, in the first place. Joanne got her PSP slim already and it was so cute. I so love the color, its Pink, of course. Almost all the Chillax members have their own PSP and it is so cool. I, too, have my own.

My brain and nose just bled. haha :p That was because of the ever difficult lessons that we had discussed in two consecutive math subjects. How good is that? I found myself nosebleeding because of the oh so hard and confusing topics. Just wish us luck about it.

Finally, our professor in NOS has been changed but I guess, my professor now is worse than the first one. Take note, he is not a certified System Engineer but a programmer. How can he teach us about Windows Server 2003 if he is a programmer? I don't know what's happening why our professors are not good enough. I don't think I can learn a lot now.

Anyhow, I have started keeping money now because I want to buy the jacket I saw at Nike. I'm really eyeing for it, plus the color, I so love it. Hopefully, I could buy it before this year ends.

Greetings Galore!
Dec. 2 - Happy Birthday Kuya Karl
Dec. 2 - Happy Birthday Kuya Kenneth
Dec. 2 - Happy Birthday Aleina
Dec. 3 - Happy Birthday Diana

Saturday, December 1, 2007

A broken heart doesn't need someone who is willing to make it whole again. Rather, it needs someone who can make it realize that it never really got broken at all.

I woke up early in the morning and received a message from Daddy Cesar that I need to go there already so we can stroll around Trinoma. I quite panicked because I haven't taken my breakfast and I haven't taken a bath. My brother as well was not yet ready. It was around 10.30am when we left the house and went to Caloocan.

Daddy Cesar, Mommy Jov, Camille and Cha were waiting for us. As soon as we arrived in their house, we sat for a little while and off we went. We rode a cab going to the place. Our first stop was Landmark. According to Daddy Cesar, it was newly-opened. Good thing, there were only few people shopping. We strolled around and had some picture taking. While we were looking for something to buy, we saw Ate Alex. I walked towards her and kissed her. Kuya Jen, Zachee and Yipee were there also.

After buying all the things we need, we went to Trinoma. We strolled around and had some picture taking again. We looked for somewhere to eat because our tummies were producing unwanted sounds already. At first, we were undecided but after a little walk, we settled down at Max's Restaurant. We had eaten yummy foods again. Of course, picture taking. After eating, we strolled around Trinoma again but we didn't buy anything.

Next, we went to SM North thru The Block. It was like any typical SM Malls. There were so many people shopping most especially, in the Department Store. I really can't help it. It was jampacked. Who would say that Filipinos don't have money? We went to Worlds of Fun to play. Yey! Then we exchanged all the tickets that we have collected to a car and a glow in the dark thingy. After that, we decided to go home.

But before we separated ways, we ate at KFC-Monumento. Then they walked us to the LRT Station. Then we finally reached home.

Here are some pics. But if you want to view all our pictures, just visit my Multiply.

December 1 - Happy Cakeday Anje!