waaaa.. new year na.. year 2006 na.. [year of the dog] excited na ako mamaya xe for sure andaming firecrackers nyan and i'm craving for hot chocolate courtesy of my grandma.. though hindi ako maxadong masaya this new year.. nasira xe ung new year ko with a bad news last thursday.. and i really felt sad about it.. i've been crying for two nights and as i spoke to my dad, umiiyak din ako.. :'c

special thanks to baklang.NIKO [buti naka-sun last night].. xe ka-text ko xa kagabi and pinapalakas nya ung loob ko.. [tnx talaga!!! ur a big help] actually, he was giving me the courage xe pinanghihinaan na talaga ako ng loob.. sana nga pag-pray mu talaga ung nangyayari sa akin ngaun.. xe natatakot ako sa posibleng mangyari eh.. =/

i can't celebrate new year tuloy.. =/ naiiyak xe talaga ako eh.. plus the fact na wala talaga akong makuhanan ng strength.. [haaay naku...] tapos i need some comfort but wala naman mag-comfort sa akin.. ung isang tao xe na inaasahan ko ay walang load... hmmmf.. =/ anu na ba ang nagyayari???

i don't know how to deal with the situation xe eh.. i really felt sad for my mom also xe sobra na xe eh.. nahihirapan na talaga kami.. she can't give me the comfort i need because she, too, needs someone else's comfort.. buti na nga lang, di ako umiyak kagabi or else maga na naman ang mga eyes ko ngaun.. i don't want to talk to my dad as much as possible para di na ako maiyak eh.. but yesterday, i've talked to him nga and sabi nya wag daw akong malungkot.. xe gumagawa naman daw xa ng paraan.. [sana nga makahanap na xa..]

may new year's party kami tomorrow and still, i don't know kung paano ako magce-celebrate.. sabi ni mommy, dapat daw wag kong ipakita that i'm affected.. [how should i???] dalawa xe ung party eh, but because of this i decided not to join sa exchange gift but dun sa isa, i join.. hindi ko talaga kaya.. i need to cry this out para mailabas kaya lang i don't know kung kanino ako dapat umiyak knowing na parehaz kami ni mommy na weak.. =/

lagi nga ako nagpe-pray eh at dahil na rin sa nangyayari ngaun sa amin, lalo pang naging strong ung faith ko kay GOD.. coz i know right now, i need his guidance..

anywei, i read my horoscope [VIRGO] though i don't believe in this but there are times na talagang totoo xa.. i have proven na xe eh.. i don't know kung totoo ung horoscope ko today..

It's not just time to welcome in a new year. For you, it may also be time to open your heart to a new relationship. Whether it's platonic, romantic or professional, rest assured it will be a blessing.